It seems that time gradually lessens the density of all things.
Newness draws me into tension, and that tension gathers and concentrates everything intensely.
My first breath, my first job, and my first love—
Every beginning felt like stepping into a vast, unknown jungle for the first time.
Everything was immense,
and before me stretched a world veiled in mist, shrouded in uncertainty.
My vision was blurred,
and adrenaline surged through my veins.
In unfamiliar spaces, among unfamiliar faces, breathing unfamiliar air,
the extreme tension of trying to absorb every piece of information through the very ends of my skin
always spurred me forward.
Yet time slowly diminishes the density of all things.
As I resonate with objects, converse with people,
and repeat actions again and again, familiarity grows.
Familiarity loosens my muscles,
and comfort stabilizes my relationships.
Once my heart eases, only then can I fully take in the world around me.
It is then I begin to notice the small, overlooked details.
Those who remain rooted in one place for long stretches may never know this sensation.
It is a vibration that only explorers can feel.
Yet explorers, too, may never comprehend the subtlety and richness that settlers discover.
For in the eyes of the explorer,
only a straight road—a high-speed highway—may unfold before them.
All things in the world are governed by the polarity of opposites.
Even human thoughts are not free from this force.
Yet there is a new nature that leads these polarities toward harmony:
the energy of collision and union.
I once miscalculated love.
I believed that giving my all, sacrificing myself completely, was what love meant.
But it was nothing more than foolish martyrdom.
When I heard someone say,
“Love is understanding,”
a deep vibration echoed through my heart.
I came to realize:
True love is the understanding that you will never fully understand.
Perhaps love is the divine mechanism
given to us to help us reach across the infinite chasm between souls.
In closing, I find myself yearning for a deeper conversation.
I wish to engage in a discussion on a simple yet profound question:
“Is love self-sacrifice or mutual understanding?”
Ooahan JS
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