(내게 아침은 오전 1시에 시작된다)
When the world is asleep, I rise.
At 1 a.m., I open my eyes, wash up, get ready to go out, and quietly sit at my desk.
The first thing I do is click on my WordPress homepage.
I check the day’s jackpot—a question, a message, a reaction thrown into my world.
Each one is like winning the lottery.
“What kind of story will begin today?”
With that excitement, I write a short piece and publish it on my site.
Then I head off to work.
This has become my new routine.
Not every day, but almost every day.
It has become a habit.
And that is a remarkable change.
There was a time when I woke up cursing—
swearing at the world, hating myself,
drenched in feelings that led nowhere.
Curled up in bed, that was how I used to start my day.
I used to curse the dawn.
Now, I embrace it.
Now, I begin my mornings writing quietly,
responding to someone’s world,
feeling truly alive.
Still, the old emotions haven’t completely disappeared.
Between 6:30 and 7:00 a.m.,
like a cursed alarm, my negative emotions rise.
Resentment. Anxiety. Swearing. Anger.
They wrap around me for about an hour—
as if it’s another routine, a shadow-self I’ve lived with for years.
And yet, once that hour passes, peace returns.
As if my feelings have been washed away,
I become someone new,
clear and weightless.
I face the rising sun,
filled with bright, hopeful emotions,
and walk home.
Every day, I fight myself.
I haven’t fully separated from my past self.
But now, I can see it clearly:
I am changing.
And each short piece I write,
is quietly helping me be born again.
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