If I Had Time
I spend 8 hours working to make a living and another 8 planning for a stable future. Out of the remaining 8 hours, 6 are spent sleeping. That leaves just 2 hours. But even those 2 hours aren’t mine. They disappear into preparations and finishing the day.
If I had real free time, just 3 hours a day, I’d do what I truly want. But that time is never given to me. It’s always withheld. The people around me expect too much. They leave nothing for me and force their standards onto my life.
What I want is simple. Walking with a loved one, watching a movie, chatting, traveling with family, or quietly reading a book. But even these feel impossible. Those closest to me dismiss them as “pointless.” All they talk about is money and honor.
But I don’t want that. I wish for 3 months—just 3 months of doing nothing. I want my days filled with only what I desire. No money, no honor, no expectations. Just peace and freedom.
No matter how others see me as a woman, I want to tell myself, “Being born a woman is enough.” But that day feels impossible. If I can’t live my own life, if I can’t make my own choices, then maybe it’s natural to want to change everything.
Ooahan JS
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